This has always been one of my favorite sayings.. so much so, that I used to have it taped to my computer screen when I worked in the real world of offices and adults. And, it really is sooooooo true.
Now, here's a little secret about ME that you might not know: I am probably one of the most insecure person you may know. Let's call me "The Closet Insecurity Broad"..ok?? Yes, it's true. I second guess EVERYTHING I do. Don't believe me, go ask hubby. He fell for the 'Confident One' and soon realized it was really a facade for the real me. I've come a LONG way since High School though...trust me. In High School, I think people thought I was this bitchy, self-centered snob...but that, too, was a front. I was really really really insecure about everything back then.
Now a days, it just creeps up on me every so often. Don't we all doubt ourselves at some point in our lives?? Please tell me I'm not alone in this?? I don't know why I am that way...and I don't understand how others are so sure of themselves all the time (or what seems like all the time).
Going with this whole 'self-doubt' theme tonight, I am also very afraid of FAILURE. I mean, who isn't, right?? Again, I am always second-guessing myself and what I'm doing and sometimes I just give up. Why, because I don't want to fail. Wow, how lame is that?? Seriously!! I could slap myself silly sometimes!!
Did I also mention that I have a slight perfectionist tick in me?? I try to keep this at bay, but sometimes I get really annoyed when things aren't done exactly as they should be. I've also come A LONG way in this category. For example, when hubby actually does the dishes for me, instead of telling him how he did it wrong (b/c it's only wrong in my head) I just fix it the next time I do them..lol.. we all have our own way of loading the dishwasher, right?? Right???
Now, become a MOM.
For the past (almost) 10 years, I have struggled to become a better person and be who I want my children to be. And someone my children would be proud of. And, yes, what a struggle it has been. I question myself on a daily basis when it comes to motherhood. It is the hardest thing in the world to do. It also happens to be the most rewarding thing in the world. I don't want my children to be 'un' confident about themselves. I want them to believe in themselves and know that they are GREAT!! I want them to go out there and try and try and try. And if they should fail at something, I want them to know they are still Great and it's ok to fail!! Because I know, that you cannot accomplish anything without trying. And if they try and succeed, how Awesome is that!! Right??
And so, I continue on this journey of life and motherhood knowing that I will make mistakes. In friendship, I will make mistakes. In marriage, I will make mistakes. But, I also know that my children, true friends and hubby will keep me sane and focused to continue on and succeed!!
Conceive it. Believe it. Achieve it.
Have a great day!! I will be attempting a new cookie design tomorrow for a great 'camp out' and a great friend's house!!