It wasn't too long after our decision was made, and I no longer had a job, that we realized we really couldn't make it on 1 salary. Sooooooooooo, this momma has been on a quest to bring in an income as well. In the past 9 years I've done what I can, when I can to bring in an income. In our family structure, my income needed to cover groceries and gas for my car. I've done everything from bartending, waitressing, baking, picture taking, cleaning, birthday party hostess, babysitting, library work...etc. Just last year, there were some weeks where I worked 4-5 jobs and basically never had a day off. We all know parenting is a full-time job, so that is NOT included in my 4-5 job description. lol
And, we all know that just being the MOM means tons and tons of juggling and scheduling and planning and budgeting. There is a limitless supply of unpaid (monetarily speaking...hugs and kisses are always there for the taking) chores to do. Since we all know about those, I'm not going to bore you with them...
Recently, though, I find myself at a crossroads of working. I no longer babysit (there are so many pros to this... only con is that constant salary) and the temporary bartending gig has ended (I am only the back-up person now with no weekly shift). I continue to work in the library...but that means Saturdays and Sundays and also means I miss a lot of stuff (ie. soccer, bday parties, events, etc). I love the library...it just sucks that I basically can only work on weekends (with 1 night thrown in there when I have a 'free' babysitter). And, with no other income coming in, these library checks cannot shrink too much and my budgeting must become very imaginative. Ahhh, yes, budgeting... I hate that word!! I even have a gas budget...
And so, now I must figure out my next step in doing my part. I don't think hubby knows just how bad I feel when I can't 'bring home the bacon' every week. Working full-time, during the day would completely change the dynamics of this house...and quite honestly, I am not willing to do that right now. I want to be home when the kids get off the bus and I want to be home with Franny until she goes off to Kindergarten. I hate working my 1 night a week b/c it means I am not there to see them and check homework and get them to afterschool activities (I'm a control freak and really hate leaving this stuff to other people...super hard for me...).
But, alas, my thinking cap is on and I know we will get past this. Everyone has daily struggles in this world. We all work hard to make sure we do what we can (and I believe that's different for every mom out there...we are all made differently and struggle with our own demons on a daily basis). So, I will push some cookies and photo sessions and see where that takes me (both are my passion)...And, I will continue to look for that perfect job for right now (you know, like a Facebook Game tester...or maybe getting paid to sleep at night...etc) The world is still my oyster:) lol
On a final note, this is what most of us Mom's look like when no one's looking... um... maybe... ok, at least this is what I look like at night after a long day..lol
And now I leave you as I must do some dishes, and sweep Franny out the door:) Have a great day... I will post a recipe later tonight!! I'm thinking a dessert is next:)