YES, I did it, ok??

I left a bucket of PUKE in the bathroom all day and didn't clean it up.  OK???

Now, let me just say that it was not a lot in it and it was that gross bile crap that comes at the end.  AND, he wouldn't have thrown it up if he didn't drink that water I told him (DJ) not to drink but hubby just shrugged his shoulders and said 'I told him he's gonna throw it up later'.  Jerk!!

And, yes, I knew it was there.  How could you not know??  It was haunting me all day... well, actually taunting me.  Because the damn bucket was rinsed, washed and soaked in bleach yesterday and it knew that I really didn't want to deal with it again.  And, well, I guess I didn't, did I??

I should order these Puke Buckets (looks like they have lids) and dole them out to each kid.  Once they are done, we can pop the lid on it and toss it.
Puke Bucket..


My real point here is, though, not that I ignored it all day...it's they way in which my hubby needs to tell me that I forgot it sitting in the bathroom.  And before you get all upset, like he did, the door was shut and Franny/Max did not go into the bathroom!!  Because, like I said, I knew it was there.  I was just delaying the inevitable.

I tend to think that my hubby...and perhaps some more of them out there... seem to have this 'ideal' schedule of how our day goes in their minds.  So, when they come home and there are still big kids sitting at the table doing homework, and one of the little kids had a diaper that might be a little too soggy, or dinner is slightly delayed, or the laundry didn't get moved from the washer (on the first floor) to the dryer (in the basement), or there are 2-3 baskets of unfolded but clean clothes sitting in the living room, etc.  You get my point here, right??  It's like an endless stream of doing things constantly all day long.  And some of it gets forgotten.  Hey, I'm not perfect and I never claimed to be.  But it gets tiring when these things are brought to your attention, you know??

On a more pleasant thought, ALL of my children are better.  Trust me...there were lots of tears and disagreements today.  Yes, all of them were home today.  But, there were some good times... we did have a Get Better Tea Party...

And Kyra played teacher with Max this morning using a free printable pack... he counted and matched and colored (no pics of this though)
http://moneysavingmom.com/2012/02/educational-freebie-valentines-tot-kit.html

Hope you all have a GREAt day:)

PS- Hubby still hasn't gotten it and I hope it stays that way!!

Creepy Cruds, Party of 6 , Right this way...

Yup...I think the picture tells most of the story, right??  And as of right now, really only 5 out of 6 have been taken down by the wonderful, exciting, and never dull Stomach Bug!!  GROSS...

It all started Sunday morning just after hubby and big kids left for church... luckily, I made him take them this week as I had to sprint to the bathroom.  And as I sit there, Max banging on the door and Franny screaming in her high-chair, I honestly think it's just something I've eaten.  How naive, right??  I know we all ate something different for dinner, so why couldn't it have been that salad I had??  WHY I ask you, WHY???  Turns out, it was the beginning of the end...

Franny was next, Max went down 1.5 days later, Kyra followed and DJ came home today with a garbage full of vomit from the bus.  YUM!!

Hubby... well, we're still waiting on him to fall.  He always goes down harder than the rest of us!!  lol

This one was odd, though.  I NEVER get it first.  I'm always the one taking care of everyone else and try to do that whole mind over matter thing of 'I won't get sick, I won't get sick, I won't get sick'...you know??  And I have about a 50/50 outcome with that... sometimes I get it and sometimes I don't.  So, odd that I went down for the count first.  Luckily, it paved the way for me to get better before the troops started falling, right??  And I have to say, hubby did come through with helping them through it and cleaning up his fair share of CRAP!!  You see, I whispered into all of their ears to make sure if they're going to get sick, make sure Mom is not home.  Or, make sure mom is otherwise occupied... ha ha..

The positive outlook of it all:
   -it really was a quick and dirty one... really only sick for like 1/2 day before you can sleep it off and gradually start to eat again.
   -weight loss jump start was tremendous (um, I lost 15 pounds ... unheard of... though, am pretty sure it's all coming back)
   -family bonding time... we get to spend some GREAT time with each other... really!!
   -I didn't have to watch Baby C... for like 3 days...
   -kids got to enjoy a 'campout' on the floor... really cool, right???
   -The toilet, sink, garbage can and floor have stayed totally clean... like the cleanest they've ever been..
   -Laundry is just getting into that machine as fast as I can do it and making it into the dryer for the next load.  though, I swear my washing machine is the next thing to go... it just doesn't fill like it used to:(

The negative outlook:
   -it's just GROSS... did I mention that yet??
   -Max was really starting to want to use the potty and this has taken us back a few steps
   -Franny was in her crib... all night... and well, this pretty much blew that right out of the water
   -No baby C = no income   ... gotta tighten the belt on the budget this week even further
   -Those diapers I just bought are gonna be gone in a flash:(
   -getting a family of 6 through this crud seems to take forever even though the actual virus is a quick one

Wow, looks like there are more positives than negatives here... how did that happen??

OK- gotta go b/c my Franny shift is coming up in 2 minutes.  If she wakes up from now 'til the morning, she's mine.

Wash your hands and sanitize!!

Claustrophobic Mommyhood??

You see that person inside that box trying to get out??  Now, imagine my inside there but instead of walls there are children, a hubby, jobs, dishes, laundry, feeding, etc etc etc.  And that about sums it up for me these days.

I am feeling totally boxed in to being a good mother and wife that I feel like I'm losing my sense of freedom.  Does that make any sense??  The day to day struggles of Mommyhood (there is no listed definition for word) are making me feel inadequate and unsatisfied.  How horrible does that sound??  Feeling this way makes the Mommy guilt pour on top of the Claustrophobia Mommy and it makes me want to shout out and scream.  Wouldn't we all feel better if we just let it out??  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hey, I do feel just a bit better.  I guess I have to work on releasing the crap from my brain and body???

I'm not just a stay at home mom either.  I work at a library and I do birthday parties at a pre-school and I watch someone else's baby and occasionally I sell my baked goods or take pictures at somebody else's party.

I don't even really feel like drinking my glass of wine at night anymore.  Now that's a true sign of something wrong, don't you think??  Though, I guess not drinking it is better than downing the whole bottle, right??  ha ha

Change starts from within, right??  And if we start to change, will those around us begin to change as well??  In my recent experience, those around you (namely MY hubby...) do not change based on your changes.  My kids, though, will change their behavior to suit your mood.  I know I'm having an off week but I know that I've tried and continue to try really really hard to be a better mother.  Perhaps trying to be a better mother and wife just can't happen at the same time??  Or perhaps, I just got dejected knowing that my husband will never change and I will have to learn to live with the things that he does/says that bother me??  Does being a better mother mean giving everything else up...when I say everything else, I mean that crap that I do outside of the home??  Should I stop wanting more and just accept the fact that I have 4 kids who need my attention??  Or do I continue to try and better myself by baking (sounds funny, huh??  let's get you educated in the kitchen..lol)?

I think... don't everyone fall over laughing b/c I'm thinking... but I think I really need to set up some Goals for myself and actually follow through on them.  Including Mommyhood goals...along with some personal ones.  Perhaps if I write it all down, I can balance being a Mom and an Individual.  What do you think??  Do you set goals for yourself?  Do you feel claustrophobic in your life at times??

Maybe I'm just feeling this way because I missed my sweaty treadmill walk and (I think) my body is working on it's first period in 2 years??  Hmmmmm... I still think those goals would be a good thing to work on.