Today was a pretty big dilemma and a lot of stressful thinking.
You see, I realized last night (yes, last night) that Max's pre-school program was a Mon/Tue/Wed cycle. The problem with this, you see, is that I watch another little baby Mon/Wed and he arrives around 10ish in the morning. The pre-school ends at 10:15. Hmmmm...what to do with that?? Oh, and the parents of the baby do not want him driven in a car with a person who is not them (or their family).
so, yeah, what to do with that.
Max's school costs pretty much nothing for him to go to b/c it is a training center for future daycare/preschool teachers. That he even got in was Awesome!! And I would totally hate to see him not be able to stay in his school b/c he was so excited to have his own school. But, the income from watching the baby is a blessing in disguise and we totally need that. And then I think about the other kids who wanted to get into this program but didn't and how we took up that spot. Long story short, we've figured out a plan for now. We will have to see how it goes and hope it works out b/c there is the potential to have the new baby mon-fri...which would also benefit our family financially. Worse case scenario, Max will have to drop out of preschool. So, let's hope that the plan works and he can stay!!
On another note, am running on fumes as always. Looking ahead and wondering how I'm going to accomplish all that I have said I would do. Am supposed to be doing b-day parties on the weekends and am trying to finish my training for that. Both kids made it into the Nutcracker and the rehearsal schedules are definitely infringing on our weekend 'social' life. Looks like DJ will miss some fun stuff this fall.
I know hubby doesn't think so, but I am kinda glad he lost his prime hunting spot this year. I will need his help on getting kids where they need to be this fall. We will have to seriously think about activities next year and what I can and cannot do. If all works out with the baby and I am still watching him next year I may not have to take on so many weekend jobs or even keep the library job on Thursdays. But then, if I give up the Thursday nights am I going to keep my job?? Yet another future dilemma I'm sure I will have to consider. The library job is a future-thinking position with hopes that once all of my kids go to school I can switch my hours to work while they are all in school.
I think baking might have to take a back burner and I will have to just take orders for people that know of me already and word of mouth. I just don't see how I can actively advertise for that when I know baking will only take place at night. I don't think I have the energy to try and make a go for it right now. Who knows if that will ever come of anything at this point. Somethings gotta give and sadly, that might be it. I know there are other things that can be given up but that's one I know will have to take a break. I'm sad that Max and Franny girl will not be able to do what Dj and Kyra did and do now. There will be no Mommy and Me classes and no gymnastics/dance classes for them. At least, not when they're little like the big kids got. But, at the same time, I'm happy that I will be able to be there and home with them. Yes, I am finally starting to enjoy the throes of motherhood and being that stay at home mom. Now, if only I could organize my home a little better and perhaps have some time to get things done...lol
Good hubby thing: he sat down with DJ and studied with him tonight
A blog about life with a no holds bar attitude. I will be as honest as possible and hope that you can get something out of my mistakes and accomplishments!!
Holiday pic
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Coming Home..
Back from Ireland and back from the Peacefulness!! I thought about writing about Ireland and everything that I did and the flight out there and back...but, I think the coming home part is what I'll write about tonight.
I missed my kids tremondously while I was away but at the same time I was glad to have the time away from them. While I did have Franny Girl with me, it was nice to NOT count kids for a change (I am constantly counting up to 4 or more kids just to make sure I've got them all). Franny and I really didn't do much except hang out and enjoy family and scenery!! Wedding was a blast, flights were ok, Tea was awesome, and relaxation was much needed. Now, let's say it in Irish: The wedding was just gorgeous, my wee little pet was a hit with everyone, a spot of tea was delish, the crack was fantastic and entertaining and the food was lovely!! ha ha ok, so back to REALITY
What's that word, REALITY??? Gosh, my brain has been swimming in some muddy waters since I've been back. I kinda thought hubby would see what I do at home and perhaps have a different view about how things get done while I'm gone...but, he is very laid back about it all and gives off this vibe that it was a piece of cake while I was away. It's kind of disconcerting, you know?? He followed a 'manual' that I created for him (times of activities, what to pack, what to feed them, etc) but it feels like he did little else while I was away. No wait, he did 3 loads of laundry I think and perhaps he did dishes. But, the bathroom smells b/c the toilet wasn't cleaned and there were crumbs all over the floor. Ha...he said he swept on Wednesday... but, alas, we all know you have to sweep more than once a week and the toilets need cleaning. And there are always more than 3 loads of laundry to do. Now, he also only had Max during the day, so why couldn't he have gotten more stuff done?? Oh, wait, I think he was doing 'outside' stuff but than the tractor broke and he was done with that. I'm often asked, by him, why I don't have the time to get the cleaning done during the week and all of the laundry and why I absolutely loathe doing dishes and making iced tea (the iced tea container seems to always be empty) and yet, while I'm gone these same things are not done. AND, he still thinks it was a cake-walk to stay with them last week.
Perhaps I should have left the baby home??? I just feel kind of deflated that he gives off this attitude that it was just so easy. It's like he still doesn't get it, you know?? He slapped my hand and said 'tag, you're it' and I'm done...so that's it, he's done. You see, it was a piece of cake to him b/c he can check out and doesn't have to do it on a regular basis.!! ha ha
Oh well, I guess that's that. I'm still completely exhausted and this is a very hectic week to come home to after a week of rest and relaxation.
On a positive note- the kids were dressed, fed, perhaps bathed, sent to school on time, picked up on time, delivered to all their activities, homework was done and hubby said he learned how to BREATHE while I was away. Always good things!!
Hope you all had a great week and I missed you all!!
RIP to my dad and many blessings to my 'step' mom on her new marriage:)
I missed my kids tremondously while I was away but at the same time I was glad to have the time away from them. While I did have Franny Girl with me, it was nice to NOT count kids for a change (I am constantly counting up to 4 or more kids just to make sure I've got them all). Franny and I really didn't do much except hang out and enjoy family and scenery!! Wedding was a blast, flights were ok, Tea was awesome, and relaxation was much needed. Now, let's say it in Irish: The wedding was just gorgeous, my wee little pet was a hit with everyone, a spot of tea was delish, the crack was fantastic and entertaining and the food was lovely!! ha ha ok, so back to REALITYWhat's that word, REALITY??? Gosh, my brain has been swimming in some muddy waters since I've been back. I kinda thought hubby would see what I do at home and perhaps have a different view about how things get done while I'm gone...but, he is very laid back about it all and gives off this vibe that it was a piece of cake while I was away. It's kind of disconcerting, you know?? He followed a 'manual' that I created for him (times of activities, what to pack, what to feed them, etc) but it feels like he did little else while I was away. No wait, he did 3 loads of laundry I think and perhaps he did dishes. But, the bathroom smells b/c the toilet wasn't cleaned and there were crumbs all over the floor. Ha...he said he swept on Wednesday... but, alas, we all know you have to sweep more than once a week and the toilets need cleaning. And there are always more than 3 loads of laundry to do. Now, he also only had Max during the day, so why couldn't he have gotten more stuff done?? Oh, wait, I think he was doing 'outside' stuff but than the tractor broke and he was done with that. I'm often asked, by him, why I don't have the time to get the cleaning done during the week and all of the laundry and why I absolutely loathe doing dishes and making iced tea (the iced tea container seems to always be empty) and yet, while I'm gone these same things are not done. AND, he still thinks it was a cake-walk to stay with them last week.
Perhaps I should have left the baby home??? I just feel kind of deflated that he gives off this attitude that it was just so easy. It's like he still doesn't get it, you know?? He slapped my hand and said 'tag, you're it' and I'm done...so that's it, he's done. You see, it was a piece of cake to him b/c he can check out and doesn't have to do it on a regular basis.!! ha ha Oh well, I guess that's that. I'm still completely exhausted and this is a very hectic week to come home to after a week of rest and relaxation.
On a positive note- the kids were dressed, fed, perhaps bathed, sent to school on time, picked up on time, delivered to all their activities, homework was done and hubby said he learned how to BREATHE while I was away. Always good things!!
Hope you all had a great week and I missed you all!!
RIP to my dad and many blessings to my 'step' mom on her new marriage:)
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Ireland or bust...
In less than 24 hours I will be on a plane somewhere over the ocean on the way to Ireland!! Yippee.
I can't believe it's here already...I can't believe I'm going either!! The last time I went to Ireland, we all went (hubby, DJ and Kyra...Max was in utero) and it was for my father's 1 year Memorial Service. And now I'm going for his widow's wedding. Strange, right?? Lots of emotions will come out this week. You see, my dad and I didn't really know each other very well until towards the end and even then I feel like I wanted more. I didn't go to his wedding when he got married in Ireland...was too young I guess?? Who knows. I feel closer to her now than when my dad was alive and so it feels kinda natural to go out there. Perhaps it's b/c I feel like I can get to know him better through her?? And now she's marrying someone else. I'm very happy for her. I know how much she loved my dad and I know how much it has taken for her to get to this point...and I am truly very happy for her. I can't wait to see everyone over in Ireland. I'm sure there will be lots of fun, some tears, and some good 'ol Irish food/drink!!
And what a week it's been leading up to it and how much of my ToDo list did I actually get done??? ha ha ha

Some things I'm gonna miss while away: my other kids of course, facebook updates (ha ha ha), facebook games (what am I gonna do...think I'll go through withdrawal...), bus stop chats, and I think I might even miss hubby...lol, Max's kisses and hugs (3 times b/c he's 3), preschool orientation, Kyra's outfit of the day, DJ's outfit of the day (you know, the plaid shorts w/the striped shirts...), my glass of wine, my bed... oh, wait, I don't sleep there anymore...think I might actually miss this couch...blogging and reading everyone else's crap (smile)
Things I won't miss: attitudes, homework, dishes (although, I will still do these over there but they aren't mine), cooking, laundry, cleaning, driving, after school crap, sibling rivalry, whining, talking to walls
Franny will turn 1 while I'm there...got a onesie for her to wear and a frilly dress:)
Getting packed- it was pretty crazy trying to figure this one out. Went and bought a new suitcase that would be big enough for all of our stuff. Filled it and it was 8.7 pounds overweight. Now, the airline charges 75 bucks for all suitcases weighing 51-70 pounds. BUT- if I have a 2nd suitcase (one that I could also fill to 50 pounds), they will only charge me 60 bucks as long as I check it in before I get to airport. Um, that's 100 pounds of luggage and is cheaper...go figure!! It was an adventure getting that all settled between weighing them and Franny 'helping' me...ha ha
Things I'm nervous about- flying in general, flying with Franny, being stuck in a seat with not a lot of room and Franny on my lap...Franny crying instead of sleeping, carrying all my stuff along with her, being searched at security (would they think anything of it if this happened and I asked someone to take a picture of it happening...lol), hanging out in the airport with just us and having to manage Franny and our bags, lost luggage, etc. Geez, you'd think I wasn't a mother of 4 thinking of all these things... I don't know why I'm feeling so nervous/anxious and stuff.
So, hopefully I will be able to check-in and write a couple entries...but am not sure if I will. I am not taking a computer with me and I don't know who has one over there. But, we will see!!
Hope you all have a great week and I will have some pics and lots of stuff when I get back:)
Good hubby: Wow, he is going to be home with 3 kids for a whole week...what husband does that?? MINE!!! even though I did write up a manual and time schedule for him, he is gonna do it.
I can't believe it's here already...I can't believe I'm going either!! The last time I went to Ireland, we all went (hubby, DJ and Kyra...Max was in utero) and it was for my father's 1 year Memorial Service. And now I'm going for his widow's wedding. Strange, right?? Lots of emotions will come out this week. You see, my dad and I didn't really know each other very well until towards the end and even then I feel like I wanted more. I didn't go to his wedding when he got married in Ireland...was too young I guess?? Who knows. I feel closer to her now than when my dad was alive and so it feels kinda natural to go out there. Perhaps it's b/c I feel like I can get to know him better through her?? And now she's marrying someone else. I'm very happy for her. I know how much she loved my dad and I know how much it has taken for her to get to this point...and I am truly very happy for her. I can't wait to see everyone over in Ireland. I'm sure there will be lots of fun, some tears, and some good 'ol Irish food/drink!!And what a week it's been leading up to it and how much of my ToDo list did I actually get done??? ha ha ha

Some things I'm gonna miss while away: my other kids of course, facebook updates (ha ha ha), facebook games (what am I gonna do...think I'll go through withdrawal...), bus stop chats, and I think I might even miss hubby...lol, Max's kisses and hugs (3 times b/c he's 3), preschool orientation, Kyra's outfit of the day, DJ's outfit of the day (you know, the plaid shorts w/the striped shirts...), my glass of wine, my bed... oh, wait, I don't sleep there anymore...think I might actually miss this couch...blogging and reading everyone else's crap (smile)
Things I won't miss: attitudes, homework, dishes (although, I will still do these over there but they aren't mine), cooking, laundry, cleaning, driving, after school crap, sibling rivalry, whining, talking to walls
Franny will turn 1 while I'm there...got a onesie for her to wear and a frilly dress:)
Getting packed- it was pretty crazy trying to figure this one out. Went and bought a new suitcase that would be big enough for all of our stuff. Filled it and it was 8.7 pounds overweight. Now, the airline charges 75 bucks for all suitcases weighing 51-70 pounds. BUT- if I have a 2nd suitcase (one that I could also fill to 50 pounds), they will only charge me 60 bucks as long as I check it in before I get to airport. Um, that's 100 pounds of luggage and is cheaper...go figure!! It was an adventure getting that all settled between weighing them and Franny 'helping' me...ha ha
Things I'm nervous about- flying in general, flying with Franny, being stuck in a seat with not a lot of room and Franny on my lap...Franny crying instead of sleeping, carrying all my stuff along with her, being searched at security (would they think anything of it if this happened and I asked someone to take a picture of it happening...lol), hanging out in the airport with just us and having to manage Franny and our bags, lost luggage, etc. Geez, you'd think I wasn't a mother of 4 thinking of all these things... I don't know why I'm feeling so nervous/anxious and stuff.
So, hopefully I will be able to check-in and write a couple entries...but am not sure if I will. I am not taking a computer with me and I don't know who has one over there. But, we will see!!
Hope you all have a great week and I will have some pics and lots of stuff when I get back:)
Good hubby: Wow, he is going to be home with 3 kids for a whole week...what husband does that?? MINE!!! even though I did write up a manual and time schedule for him, he is gonna do it.
What makes me happy: SUNSHINE too bad we don't have any and too bad it isn't sunny in Ireland:( ha ha
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| yup...I could do that during a past trip there...wonder if I can still jump on this thing w/o peeing my pants..lol |
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| last trip there...prego w/Max |
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